The last few months of 2013, as I mentioned in my last post, I had a bit of an extended pity party. I was feeling so sad about not being able to get pregnant and felt sorry for myself. Then I woke up one day, looked in the mirror and shouted (well, not out loud, even though I deserved to be shouted at!) BROOKE ANNE GLASSBURN, GET OVER YOURSELFFFFFF!!!!!!!!!) The many f's signify how much I needed to get over myself! But after that I felt awakened. Awakened to the reminder that life is beautiful and I WILL be a mother someday. I found something on Pinterest the other day that was perfect (Hello, my name is Brooke and I am addicted to Pinterest. Like WHOA!)
I love this saying and need to get it put on a sign and read it every morning! Good thing I have an amazing friend, The Hobby Mommy, who makes the cutest signs and I just may have to have her do this one! Crystal Ward, if you are reading this, have I told you how nice you look lately?!
So, 2014. The year of major life changes. Instead of resolutions, which myself and millions of others are pumped about in January, we join gyms, we go Paleo, then by March we're back to sporting sweats, on the couch with our besties Ben & Jerry. So I wanted to do something different. Something that would help motivate me and stay focused, faithful and positive as Jason and I start our adoption journey. I picked a phrase to live by this year and that phrase is: "to live with grace". Recently, while at the Doctor, I was telling the nurse, whom I love by the way, that I was struggling a bit with my feelings about not being pregnant and getting frustrated when I hear people complain about their pregnancies and so on and so forth. She said something that really stuck with me, "you have to have grace for others and never expect them to know how you feel." I needed to hear that very message on that very day. I want to live a life full of grace and that is why this phrase is so important. I found a prayer that fits perfectly with this phrase:
Prayer to Live With Grace
May we discover through pain and torment,
the strength to live with grace and humor.
May we discover through doubt and anguish,
the strength to live with dignity and holiness.
May we discover through suffering and fear,
the strength to move toward healing.
May it come to pass that we be restored to health and to vigor.
May Life grant us wellness of body, spirit, and mind.
And if this cannot be so, may we find in this transformation and passage
moments of meaning, opportunities for love
and the deep and gracious calm that comes
when we allow ourselves to move on.
That is also something I should frame as a daily reminder!
As a family, Team Glassburn decided to pick a theme for the year. And here it is!:
We want to start this year on the right path and so far so good! And that path is: The path towards Baby Glassburn! Our first step is finances. We signed up for a 6 week Dave Ramsey course that starts at the end of this month. We are so ready to get finances squared away and start saving for a house and our adoption! We are also meeting with someone next week about buying a house! Big things in store this year for the Glassburns! We may have to give up some fun things for awhile, but I have a strong feeling it will all be worth it.
In the meantime, here in Indianapolis we are experiencing Snow-My-Gosh as I like to call it. We had 8-14 inches throughout the area and then it got COLD. And by COLD I don't mean 30. I mean -30 oh my-I-can't-feel-my-face-COLD!!! So during snow-my-gosh I have been spending some time reading while being. I downloaded some adoption books on my Kindle and am reading some amazing info. When it comes to the adoption process, I am in the, have-no-idea-where-or-how to start phase. I just want to soak up as much information as I can. I started to get a little overwhelmed and then I found a blog turned book by a cancer survivor/adoptive mommy. It is hilarious, It's called 99 Problems and a Baby Ain't One: A Memoir about Cancer, Adoption, and My Love for Jay-Z.
I haven't gotten to her adoption story yet, but I am sure it will be amazing, informative and hilarious!
Books on books on books! I want to read as many adoption books as I can. There's an episode of How I Met Your Mother (fav show, huge Marshall Eriksen fan) where Lily and Marshall are talking about trying to get pregnant and all Lily talks about is babies this and babies that. It drives her best friend Robin absolutely nuts. I kind of have a feeling this is going to be me, but about adoption of course. So friends and family, this is me apologizing but not apologizing for dropping some serious adoption knowledge on you! In all seriousness, we will be asking for so much support during this journey and to all of you reading, just sharing our story and getting the word out there and even offering any advice you have or experience with adoption, would be amazingly awesome and beyond appreciated!
In the midst of sipping my morning chai and cuddling with Brason the cat this morning, I got a work email that made me smile from ear to ear and reminded me that nothing is an accident. Prayers work. There are no such things as random coincidences and God has totally been winking at me (my cool way of saying sending me signs) about adoption in so many ways! I work for an amazing company. A company that values their employees, genuinely cares about their happiness and goes out of its way to show that. There is a group called ExactWin that is a networking group for working moms. To be honest I have never paid attention to the emails from this group, obvi, because I am not a momma. But today, the invite got my attention. Next week the group is hosting an adoption panel lunch. WOW. WOW. WOW. I could not believe: 1. how amazing it is that they are doing this and 2. the timing. I can not wait to attend and learn about so many aspects of adoption that I am clueless about and also to network with others who want to adopt or have adopted and can offer their stories and advice. And then, about an hour later, I received an email from someone whom a friend at work had connected me with. She is a social worker that does adoptions and we are going to meet soon and talk. Wow again. The timing is amazing. Coincidence?! No way. No way at all. God is winking at me like crazy!!!
Well, I need to get back to being the world's #1 cat mom and go cuddle with this little kitty/work from home!!
Have the best day ever and another theme of this year is: BLOG! BLOG! BLOG!
Happy 2014 from the Glassburn Fam
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